Day 13 – Do not despise the day of small beginnings


It is always a challenge in launch season to not be so future focussed that you forget to focus on the really special now moments of your life. This day will never come again. This size church will never be this small again. This season will never come back. So do not rush through it because you are so desiring the change and the launch!

The key in living the miracle of your launch is actually in the word NOW!

   Isaiah 54:4 For the desolate woman now has more children
than the woman who lives with her husband,”
says the Lord.

THE WORD HERE IS NOW – FAITH IS THE EVIDENCE OF THINGS NOT YET REVEALED TO OUR FIVE PHYSICAL SENSES…

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the assurance (title deed, confirmation) of things hoped for (divinely guaranteed), and the evidence of things not seen [the conviction of their reality—faith comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses].

 

Waiting each month to get pregnant – NOW even though it wasn’t yet revealed to my five physical senses. This was so disappointing for years. 

THE NOW AND NOT YET MOMENT AND THE GAP IN BETWEEN… WHAT DO WE DO WHEN WE ARE WAITING…THE GAP?

What do you do in the waiting?

What do you celebrate?

Me, in the deepest grief and unending desire to have chidlrens, whenever other friends would get pregnant i had to choose to celebrate! And quite literally buy them gifts to CHOOSE to celebrate them. Even when it hurt. Ad if God was a pie where there was only so many children to go around!! 

Its staying present in that NOW moment and not drawing back emotionally or spiritually..

Its seeing every moment as our now and not yet..

“Taking your children to school and kissing your wife goodbye

Eating lunch with a friend, trying to do a decent days work . Hearing the rain patter against the window. There is no event so commonplace but that God is present within it, always hiddenly, always leaving room for us to recognize Him or not to recognize Him, but all the more so fascinatingly because of all that, all the more compellingly and hauntingly. If I were called upon to state in a few words the eseence of everything I believe – it would be listen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery that it is. In the boredom and the pain of it, no less than in the excitement and the gladness of it : touch taste smell your way to the holy and the hidden heart of it because in the last analysis all moments are key moments and life itself grace”

Shauna Neuquist

I began to find that i needed to stay super grateful for my days. Right here and right now. They say if you are going to make any changes in a renovation that you have to sit in the room until you are fully satisfied with it, grateful for every part of it, so that when you make the change, you do not do it out of discontent. That is a great challenge in a launch season. The balance between contentment and holy discontent to not have your environment stay the same!

So i began to review my days with these questions from John ODonohue.

Questions for the end of my day:

 

What dreams did i create last night?

Where did my eyes linger today

Where was i blind?

What did i learn today?

What new thoughts visited me?

What differences did i notice in those closest to me?

What did i begin today that might endure?

How were my conversations?

Where did i allow myself to receive love?

Where could i have risked doing something different?

With whom today did i feel most myself?

What reached me today? How deep did it imprint?

Who saw me today?

What did i avoid today?

From the evidence – WHY WAS I GIVEN TODAY?

This helped me begin to pause into the everyday. This is a crazy season in launch. Messy kitchen, beds unmade, late nights and early mornings. A million phone calls and number crunching. But i do not want to miss the moments, with Jesus, with my husband, with our kids, our neighbours and our team.

Pausing helps!

 

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